Posted By on May 9, 2011

Since the week before Easter (you know back when I posted this) I have gained 2.2 pounds. It was 1.6 pounds last week and then .6 this week. All in all, not bad at all considering there were holidays and celebrations and a lot of cake.

Most people would post a post like that and it would motivate them! It would give them the added incentive to keep it up! Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels! Or other such nonsense. Because you know what? Burritos are good. The end.

But me, I did the opposite. I let it all go to my head and while I’m still quite a few pounds away from my goal, I acted like I was Kate Moss and had the metabolism of a 20 year old and ate everything in sight. In my defense, I went up to Milwaukee to visit Ali for Passover, and then it was my nephew’s baptism (and dinner) and then Easter and then, and then, and then.

The goal weight I have chosen is at the high end of my BMI range. Because I’ve gotten down lower and it is virtually impossible for me to maintain. Because I like food and I like beer and I’m not going to be a miserable person and not partake in any of these things ever for the rest of time. Life is too short to pass on booze and cake. No cake and no booze is not a world I want to live in. Ever.

So I don’t apologize when I overindulge at holidays and special occasions. Because these celebrations usually involve, and revolve around, food. And I’m OK with that. (I mean, have you ever been to a meal for Passover or Shabbat at a Jewish person’s house? It is ALL about the food! And Ali and her family make very delicious things!) So half the fun is enjoying the meal together and I’m not going to use that time to not eat because I don’t know the points values.

But, my problem is that I can form bad habits in a half-second. In the weekend I spent eating and celebrating, etc., I had already gotten back into my bad habits from pre-Weight Watchers with overeating and not tracking and not being smart. It is OK to indulge, it’s not OK to eat the entire Taco Bell menu in one sitting.

So that’s my long explanation as to WHY I’ve gained 2.2 pounds in the last three weeks.

This is not a lot of weight. I know this. I’m not upset. I can take it back off. In fact, my 0.6 pound weight gain on Saturday morning could have been the extra salt I consumed the night before, the 2-3 miles I did of walking the day before or the fact that I hadn’t yet moved my bowels. Two point two pounds is not a mountain of weight to climb. I know this.

But that doesn’t make me less disappointed in myself. It is one thing to have a good week, track everything you eat, work out, do it all right and then on the scale and gain. It is a sucky feeling. But it is yet another thing to KNOW what to do and just……not do it.

I know what it takes to lose. I know how to work the program. I know what to do. I just hate when I let myself get in the bad habit of not doing it.

Yes, my schedule has been hectic. Yes, I’ve been busy. And yes, I have a vacation coming up. But that doesn’t mean I have to throw everything I’ve accomplished in the last four months out the window. The beauty of this new program is that you CAN indulge and enjoy food without gaining a ton of weight.

Writing it all down, this post in addition to what I eat, makes me accountable. And then I am going on vacation Wednesday morning. And then I am going to enjoy myself and the all-inclusiveness of it that I’ve already paid for. And then I am probably going to gain a few pounds while I’m in Jamaica. And then, and then, and then.

And that is OK. Because I know the minute I land back in Chicago on Sunday night, it is time to get back on track again.

And then…I will get to my goal.

About the author

Kristabella, who also answers to “Hey! Drunk Girl!”, is a reformed band geek with an amazing ability to drink most people under the table. You can read her inane ramblings here, where she talks about her exciting life as a spinster with two cats and a fascination for Bacon.


7 Responses to “2.2”

  1. Jessica says:

    Being accountable totally helps.
    Case in point: I started writing down everything I ate, realised I was eating for the metabolism of a 20 year old aerobics instructor or something and started eating properly. Within a couple of months of just eating properly (sadly, I have issues with *shudder* exercise) I had lost 12lbs. Feeling pretty good about everything, I became.. uh.. relaxed about writing it down. Within 3 weeks, I’ve gained 12lbs. Hrm. So I’m right back where I was and starting all over; having to see it written down that I ate 3 donuts for lunch really does make me eat better. I’m soooo good at denial in the absence of proof. :\
    Jessica´s last blog post ..In The Presence of Presents

  2. Angella says:

    Writing it down has been key for me these past few weeks of getting back on track. I’ve been using the “my fitness pal” app and you can search for foods and it tracks the calories consumed (and burned, when you exercise). The calorie counting helps me keep my portion sizes in check.

    Good for you for recognizing that life without cake and beer is a sad, sad place to be, and that you can’t go on your holiday and not indulge. Go, have fun, and when you get back we’ll all be here cheering you on. 🙂
    Angella´s last blog post ..Like A Mother

  3. mouncie123 says:

    Amen sister I am right there with you. I too am cutting back on everything and will be thinner soooon. Have a great vacation!

  4. Mojito Maven says:

    Been there. Done that. Countless times over.

    I’m not going to tell you what you “should” do in this situation or how you feel. But know that you have a supportive ear to listen in me if you ever need one.

    You can do this. And we’re all here to help you get there!


  5. jodifur says:

    I have found losing weight is up and down and up and down. Get back and track and you will do fine.
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  6. Darcey says:

    I could’ve written this post myself. Granted, I’ve only been on WW for a month, but I was down 5lbs in the 1st 3 weeks, and then went up 1.6 during a week that I can only describe as hellish (and that wasn’t including the PMS).

    So I’m back to recording everything I eat, making more meals at home, making sure I eat my salads, drinking more water, and I even went to the gym BEFORE work (!!) this morning, because I know how much my motivation sucks after when I’m stuck at the office until 8pm and just want to go home to snuggle with my pup.

    Anywho – good on recognizing it all for what it is, and vowing to get back on track when you come home.

    But until then, ENJOY JAMAICA!

  7. Maddie says:

    I also get the feeling of getting towards my goal once I started gaining pounds. But now it is okay for me if I gain or lose pounds since I already accept my weight. it is nice idea to write it all down in addition to what you eat. Good luck with attaining your goal and have a nice time on Jamaica.
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