Back In The Saddle

Posted By on June 12, 2012

I’ve fallen off the horse. The working out horse, that is.

I was doing so well. I was working out and running. I was exercising at least three days a week. And then life got busy. I was still aiming for 1-2 times a week, but even that seemed to be difficult. Right before my mud run, back at the end of May, I was maybe running one day a week.

And then there was the Mud Run. And I was so sore. And defeated that I didn’t actually do any running. I actually finally ran for the first time the Wednesday after that race. And it was good!

Then I left on vacation. And I’ve never worked out on vacation. I brought the stuff, but you know what is better than running on vacation? Not running on vacation.

Then my trip continued and I went to Seattle. I was supposed to go running with Chris, but was still drunk on Sunday morning. It was all fine and good because I had somehow sliced the top of my toe off.

I figured once my toe was better, I’d get back at it. And really, had I done something the week after getting back, it would have only been a week break.

My toe was better by last week. Not 100%, but capable of handling a workout. But that wasn’t enough to get me motivated. I missed running and working out, in theory, but not enough to actually do something about it.

I had a chat with a runner friend of mine two weekends back. She was all excited to hear about me taking up running. I mentioned it had been over a week and she said that sometimes we need a break. Forcing yourself to always do it will make you hate it.

I completely agreed with this. And I vowed to get back on the horse. I even signed up for a monthly unlimited pass at Bar Method. I’ve registered to go about 7 times and have made it to the studio exactly zero times since June 1.

This week I told myself. This week it was time to stop with the excuses. I have another mud run on July 1 and then a 5k on July 12. No more dicking around.

And here I sit, completely unmotivated to do anything. It makes no sense. I KNOW how much better I feel when I work out. I KNOW how good it is for me. I know, I know, I know.

I should do the reward system again, but I feel like even that isn’t enough motivation. To me, there isn’t anything I need/want that bad. And I’ll probably just end up buying it for myself when I want anyway.

But I’m not giving up. I’m going to be back on that stupid workout horse. I go to Toronto this weekend and when I get back, I’m going to have a renewed motivation. I’ve not only lost the mojo in working out, I have not been good about what I’m eating either. I get compliments on how I look and then I think I can have fried chicken and biscuits for dinner twice in one week.

I’m writing it down here because then I have to be accountable for it. I want all of you to MAKE me accountable for it. Force my ass back onto that horse!

Pretty please? With whipped cream and a cherry on top?

Mmmmm, ice cream sundae.

Edited to add: After writing this, I forced myself to go to the gym and it was good. I need to remember this the next time I don’t want to go.

About the author

Kristabella, who also answers to “Hey! Drunk Girl!”, is a reformed band geek with an amazing ability to drink most people under the table. You can read her inane ramblings here, where she talks about her exciting life as a spinster with two cats and a fascination for Bacon.


13 Responses to “Back In The Saddle”

  1. Chris says:

    OK- you already held youself accountable. Bravo! My turn- I am going to my very first barre class on Thursday morning. Gasp! My rotund self in a mirrored room full of lithe pilates women. A nightmare but I am going to do it anyway. 🙂

  2. Karynjewels says:

    Oooooo…what’s the Bar Method? Must google! You have achieved a ton in the past year that you should be proud of. Go a little easier on yourself…and then go to the gym;) I am impressed that you have done all the running you have. I hate running so anyone that does it at all not to mention distance running is a rock star in my book. I’d say “You Go Girl” but it’s not the 90’s.
    Karynjewels´s last blog post ..Busy Little Bee….

  3. Karynjewels says:

    BTW…I just googled Bar Method, found one in Richmond, Va and am going to a class tonight. Thanks for inspiring me. See? You did good today!
    Karynjewels´s last blog post ..Busy Little Bee….

  4. alimartell says:

    Yes. Explain Bar Method. I know not of this…surprising, I know. Hahah.
    alimartell´s last blog post ..LAAAAWBSTER

  5. Alice says:

    oh god, i am in SO THE SAME PLACE. i was doing so well! tracking my food! running 2-3 times a week! then i had the Month Of The SInus Infection and just… never got back on the horse.

    my cleaning lady is coming tonight though, and i feel SUPER AWK being in the apt while they’re cleaning (and i’m sitting around being a lady of leisure or something) so i’m going to force myself to use that time to run. i hope.
    Alice´s last blog post ..SERIOUSLY BLOGGER, this post looks like shit. i blame you.

  6. Amy L says:

    Bar Method is AMAZING! I’m so glad so many of you are giving it a try. It has TOTALLY changed my body in the past 3 months

  7. Laura says:

    For some reason, this phrase stuck in my head awhile back and has had the ability to motivate me to move my body when nothing else has: “You don’t have to like it, you just have to do it.” I usually find that breaking a long stretch of inactivity is the hardest thing. Once I’ve gotten back on the wagon, it’s not that hard to stay on, but getting on is REALLY hard. So if you can force yourself to go once or twice, the times after that won’t seem like such a hurdle. Same thing with making smart food choices, actually.

  8. sister p says:

    I only ran once after the mud race. So, you are not alone. hahaha there is a 5k at Tommy’s school on friday June 22nd at 7:30 pm. I will sign you up for that. There- boooo Ya!!!!

  9. Erin says:

    Hang this where you can see it all the time:
    Erin´s last blog post ..Medal Day

  10. Erin says:

    Bar Method isn’t cheap – go! I’ve been going 4 days a week…challenge is on Tues/Thurs/Sat/Sun.

  11. MauraLessa says:

    I feel ya, sister. I realize I can get pumped up a little before if I put on my workout mix. Something about the workout music starts the adrenaline flowing. Good luck! And go to Bar Method! As Erin says, that’s not cheap!!

  12. Skwishee says:

    You have to start running again because, to tell you the truth, part of me forcing myself to walk over 10,000 steps a day was seeing on my fitbit dashboard that I was catching up to you. It’s all about me, donchaknow.
    Skwishee´s last blog post ..Now You’re It!

  13. Laura K says:

    Haven’t been on this site in ages but man, you look GREAT. I started the gym after 4.5 years of no exercise beyond walking to and from the bathroom at work. Now that I’ve hit the 40 year club with a kid, I didn’t want to scare people at the local pool.